Stuck

Something has been bugging me lately, the last few days. Can't really figure out what, though.

Working on our booklet assignment, I have this feeling I will never be quite satisfied, mostly because I don't really know what colors I'm drawn to, or I think the band could like. Now it's a pink/purple/green combination, but what if they don't see a fierce album cover, only something that for some odd reason reminds them of the green goblin in Spiderman? (that's what I see in my minds eye. the cartoon version, not the one from the movie)

On a more personal level, in my own private misery of making music I am very, very...stuck. Completely. I have this need for a band, a real one, with musicians that truly know their craft. People that can put a little personality to it. I'm sure they're out there, but I don't know where to look. We were talking, me and a friend, but he and the boys are all so busy (and I get that), but it puts me in a standstill and well...

And the other thing, I find myself writing the same song over and over again. It's boring me out and driving myself from the piano and I'm suddenly spending all my free time in the kitchen.

Come to think of it, I'm doing it again. What I have been doing for years, throwing myself into other projects so I don't have to roll up my sleeves and do what I really want. 'cause THAT would be scary, to say the least.

Well, hope this little post can service as a good kick in the butt.